Thoughts from Today...

I don't even know how to start this... I have so many thoughts running through my head at the moment. For one thing, I am very thankful for the Sabbath and that I can just be, and remember the One who made me. Having two children increases the amount of effort it takes to just take it easy on Sabbath.

I very rarely feel like I am a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad mother. Today I did feel that way.

Honestly, sometimes I feel like we do not allow Hope to be a carefree child enough. Sometimes, I would just love to let her be, without constantly guarding and watching and cautioning and correcting. Sometimes I feel like I am just too hard on her. She is not even three years old yet.

Then, I learn that I do not discipline enough. I let Hope get away with too much. Don't ask me how I learned this, but believe me, I learned. And this was not something that I learned on my own. So now I just feel inadequate. Where is the happy medium? How do I teach my child about boundaries, kind ways of playing and what is appropriate and inappropriate? Are timeouts not enough? Is spanking too much?

I AM NOT ASKING FOR ADVICE... These are only my thoughts.

On a happier note, I also learned today that I am able to squeeze back in to my size 6 prematernity pants. Yay! I still have plenty of other things to work on besides my pant size though, including my parenting.

Oh Lord, please be my guide. Help  me to lead my children and train them well. Help me to lead them to You.